Seeking to deepen my relation with Aya I signed for a week-long retreat that also offered the opportunity to experience San Pedro (Huachuma Cactus) another sacred plant I didn’t know anything about until the retreat started, and I quickly realized I should have done my due diligence research. Some of the experienced participants shared what I should expect and this included: 8-16 hours journey, blending of dimensions, seen with eyes open and losing emotional control……By then I had heard enough and couldn’t help to have all my fears re-awakened. Every fear I had experienced before Aya, and more, came back to me…Among them, my biggest was encountering dark forces and the sleep paralysis feeling of “dying from asphyxia” that often accompanied such encounters for me… These two fears -I was grateful- had not manifested with Aya… and I was literally freaking out contemplating the possibility they may take place now experiencing San Pedro.
Category: Ayahuasca
Aya Speaks – visions, a female or male spirit?
The second ceremony night in this visit I experienced the same gentleness and lack of body symptoms, the wise voice made its appearance significantly earlier and I lost no time in presenting my questions. Why do I hear you as a man when everybody else’s seems to identify you as a female? The voice responded shifting from male to a women’s voice: “Because you distrust women” before shifting back to a male presence and voice.
Meeting the Aya Spirit – He/She Speaks
Why was I coming back? What was I looking for? What else did I want to gain from drinking more Aya? I could not answer these questions with clarity but I had gone back to the jungle only a month after my 1st visit. I just knew I had to come back.Read More »
The Discovery of the AfterGlow The Good and The Tricky……
The sense of connectedness, clarity and calm happiness continued during the next following weeks. This was something I did not expect, the shaman had only said please follow the diet for two weeks and the healing positive energies will remain with you…
I noticed significant changes in my overall mood, I was happy and contempt all the time with no specific reason. I realized that I had been before in a chronic depression I wasn’t fully aware off until now having it been lifted, happiness felt unusual.
Third Visit – I can’t drink again … Insights Galore
I had one more drinking night left on this visit, I had woke up for lunch and heard comments about how this night ceremony would feature a different brew, “Black Ayahuasca” which I knew nothing about at the time, yet the name alone gave me chills. After two ceremony nights in a row, I was too tired to think much about it and I went straight back to sleep.Read More »
Second Visit – Undergoing Brain Surgery
The morning after our first ceremony, I woke up uplifted and energized despite the few sleeping hours. We still had two more nights ceremonies in front of us and I spent the day in a space of serenity and peace until then very unfamiliar.Read More »
First Time Meeting the Gentle Giant … An Open Invitation.
After witnessing none of the 6 participants who drank going nuts and hearing none of them saying: “I thought I was going to die” in this visit where I didnt drink the brew but just witnessed; and after hearing about my husband account of his own experience; I decided it was probably safe for me to try it, maybe one day….
Ayahuasca… Should I ? Could I?
I was having a hard time adapting back to my native country and shedding my past identity. I knew answering “I’m taking a break” to the recurrent: so, what do you plan on doing here now? question wasn’t going to be acceptable for long. Above all, it wasn’t the fear of the unknown, the stress of starting from zero, or the social pressure what was bothering me.. what was KILLING me was the lack of structure, not been tied up to a smartphone with an agenda and solving double and triple bookings every am while having my coffee…. Read More »
Before the Beginning… Sheding a Lifetime
This blog relates my transformation journey aided by enthogens which started in fall 2014 when I made my way back to my natal country, Ecuador after almost a decade of living in North America. I became deeply involved in consciousness exploration through South American sacred plants, primarily Ayahuasca but also San Pedro/Huachuma and Datura/Toe among others. This short post provides a quick recap of what led me to this point.
The Enlightened Path 