Conquering Fear and the Power of Choice

30/01/202530/01/2025 Isa AlexandraLeave a comment

“Fear is the mother of all entities… its ultimate manipulation lies behind every other force” the wise voice spoke calmly. Ever since the birth of my child four years ago, my Ayahuasca sessions took on a darker, more combative tone. I found myself battling entities that fed on patterns of trauma, fears, and old wounds. These emotionally intense and exhausting sessions were far from easy, but they were transformative. In truth, they were the only thing that helped me break free from postpartum depression where I experienced unprecedent panic attacks.

“The foundation of this matrix’s control is FEAR,” the wise voice said, and started to share the tentacles of fear and the progress I had made in releasing each of them….

Ayahuasca and My Pregnancy

09/03/202103/01/2025 Isa Alexandra3 Comments

“You will be having a baby girl soon” said our head shaman Ramon in my Jan/2020 lunar eclipse jungle visit, his words took me aback not because I considered it out of the question but rather because I never heard him before making a “prediction”. A few months later the pandemic would hit and I turned 40 both facts looking back shifted my life priorities

The “Dark” Side of Ayahuasca. Drinking During a Lunar Eclipse

05/02/202003/01/2025 Isa Alexandra2 Comments

Along the six years I have been walking the path of the medicine I have identified certain patterns, perhaps the most helpful is that experiences are most vivid and rewarding during moon eclipse times and, to a lesser grade, during full moons. This has been so consistent, that I now plan all my jungle visits solely around these events. My last visit to the jungle coincided with the eclipse of January 10^th (2020, south American timing) when a group of friends and I arrived on time for a preparatory tobacco purge and placed all our expectations for a lively Aya ceremony during the lunar event.

San Pedro vs Ayahuasca

08/05/201703/01/2025 Isa Alexandra2 Comments

My relationship with San Pedro has been one of love and fear. I visit with him about once per semester and have experienced from it the most powerful healings. I shared in this blog my first encounter (read about it here) where I was shown the bliss of love and the mystic beauty of nature and my second one… a mixed plants ceremony w aya and peyote (read about it here) where I was able to heal several phobias… and another encounter where he decided to visit during my Aya journey and took me out of this world in a 54hrs cosmic trip to Sirius planet (read about it here).

Meeting The Ancient Ones

13/01/201703/01/2025 Isa AlexandraLeave a comment

You are ready to drink alone, the shaman said casually over breakfast one day after almost two years of regular visits to the jungle for Aya ceremonies. Living at a max 3hrs drive, I was comfortable ignoring his words until life had me move way farther away (16hrs drive and unaccesible by plane) so no much longer after this, I found myself in a borrowed beach house, drinking half a cup of brew prepared in the jungle and shipped to me….

The Kill Switch… the Datura Spirit overtakes my Ayahuasca Session

05/08/201503/01/2025 Isa Alexandra3 Comments

I had come back to the jungle for an intimate ceremony, it would only be me accompanying my little brother (31 now but hey, little brothers will always be little brothers right?) as he had decided to experience Ayahuasca for the first time. The night was moonless, rainy and cold. I was served half a glass and was grateful I could swallow the thick liquid in only one shot

Reclaiming Power – Medicine Temazcal (Sweat Lodge) Healing

26/07/201503/01/2025 Isa Alexandra4 Comments

The peak of the experience of this enthogen’s retreat at the mountains was a Temazcal ceremony. The medicine to be served a mix of Ayahuasca and San Pedro and rumor had it the shaman would bring tiny amouts of Peyote as admixture (practice i learnt later is used to summon plant allies without neccesarily adding the chemical composition of allucinogens)…. I had never experienced a Temazcal before, nor had i experienced the effects of mixing different plant medicines for that matter.

Visiting Sirius, Choosing Earth…. San Pedro and Ayahuasca Interaction

22/07/201503/01/2025 Isa Alexandra4 Comments

After about two months from my last journey, I was itching to return to the jungle and I had my opportunity when a small group was scheduled for late April. Everything seemed normal our first evening; My internal attitude however, was unlike any on my past experiences. I felt -for the first time – that I could go into this journey in total trust, as now I had come to know firsthand the love and benevolence of the spirit encountered when drinking Ayahuasca, my previous fears and insidious doubts had lifted completely…

Meeting The San Pedro (Huachuma, Aguacoya) Spirit. San Pedro Cactus in Ecuador

16/07/201531/12/2017 Isa Alexandra1 Comment

Nothing can prepare you for your first San Pedro encounter, to begin, there is nowhere as much information about it online or books written as there is for Ayahuasca; Almost everybody I’ve asked to describe their SP experiences has answered: “It’s hard to put into words”, and it has always taken me several days before I’m able to even attempt to journal my own SP experiences.

Aya Intervention. Im still here…

16/07/201503/01/2025 Isa AlexandraLeave a comment

Seeking to deepen my relation with Aya I signed for a week-long retreat that also offered the opportunity to experience San Pedro (Huachuma Cactus) another sacred plant I didn’t know anything about until the retreat started, and I quickly realized I should have done my due diligence research. Some of the experienced participants shared what I should expect and this included: 8-16 hours journey, blending of dimensions, seen with eyes open and losing emotional control……By then I had heard enough and couldn’t help to have all my fears re-awakened. Every fear I had experienced before Aya, and more, came back to me…Among them, my biggest was encountering dark forces and the sleep paralysis feeling of “dying from asphyxia” that often accompanied such encounters for me… These two fears -I was grateful- had not manifested with Aya… and I was literally freaking out contemplating the possibility they may take place now experiencing San Pedro.

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